There is time for everything and season...

It's not easy when four beloved people die...

These last few months have been challenging to say the least.

First Eddie, then Granny, James and the final straw Werner...all exceptional people.

this lead me to thinking about how we process death. Some people said to me because both Granny and Werner had lived long lives, it's "easier" to process their deaths. We all knew James was terminally ill. Eddie's death therefore was more of a shock...
I disagree, we process death in relation to the relationship we had with that person.

My love for each of these splendid people ...that's what makes it hard to deal with. They were a presence in my life, they contributed something truly meaningful to me, the loss of that, that's what makes it hard for me.

A good friend said to me in the midst of this heartache...the hole or gap that's left in your heart is meant to be there. Don't try to fill it. It belongs to that person.

.....love and peace to their souls...the holes you have left within me are yours forever!