JOY OF A YEAR END

Instinctively I go through the inner analysis of the year. I begin by looking at all that I have accomplished and experienced in 2008.
Evaluation:
I have studied and completed Echoing the Word - A theology course. I have completed my OD ETD Qualification..."whatie what?" Occupationally Directed Education Training and Development Qualification.

The theology course has been onerous from a commitment point of view, once a month and then having to complete a detailed assignment on each theme. It has also been the most edifying form me. My most notable turning point was the last lecture on Eschatology. I gained tremendous insight into the End Times. I realised that it was not by accident that I had completed the course. In the words from Kung Fu Panda: "There are no accidents".

I gained greater appreciation for the fact that we are created in God's image and are part of God..His spirit within us. This spirit is also physical, Peta you see. My spirit has chosen in a sacred contract to be part of the van Niftrik and Gardner families. To begin my sacred journey as Peta. In my physical being I am limited by my physicality and grow to learn and expand my spiritual being and as I grow closer to my essence, God within me, I gain greater sense of God. I am given opportunities and moments to get closer or move further away (my free will) which is my conscious choice. This allows me to learn the lessons I need to learn for my specific journey to God.

At my end, I am "judged" which is not the fire and brimstone, experience I once thought, but more of my own judgement and God's loving awareness of my journey, with all the graces and flaws. My realisation of where I have met God's plan or fallen short of it, is judgement. My spiritual being then comes complete in expansion with God when we are united, however I may have to "return" to learn lesson/s I have failed.

As I write this, I realise, how inadequate my sense of all this is. "I know nothing..." How did I get to this when reviewing 2008? Oh, yes, the course I took...I also realise that it is essential to look back and survey where one has come. God asked the Israelites to look back, and celebrate and rejoice in the journey they had taken from Egypt to the Promised Land.

My journey...may not be from Egypt, but I feel at times I have walked a dessert this year. I finally made it through the dessert of financial dependence and slavery. I learnt a HUGE lesson to financial freedom from my credit cards and credit card debt....Where I in fear hold my anxiety, how I react in a childlike way to my fears. What these fears are (some call these Issues). I faced them, walked with them and through them to my Promised Land of being totally debt free.

Linked to this was how with my fears, I hold onto them in my stomach ( I am learning more about Chakras) and that explained my addiction to eating. My weight....well having faced the fears, I went on a 12 week physical health program to move my weight, and lost 9kg. This as I found out is the beginning, I need to pursue this well into 2009. I am able to enjoy exercise and eating well. I need to come to a place where I don't feel guilty about eating rich and decadent food (once in a while). This is one of my goals for 2009.

Then synchronistically, I met a spiritual guide. He has unlocked my true self, and brought me to Divine happiness. Not by any one act, but by speaking to my soul, through my soul and about my soul! In the two appointments I had with him this year, I have learnt to relax and be me!
To enjoy me. It is awesome that when you ask ....you are lead to the answer and solution. This has been my experience of 2008.

I have loved every day, and loved the fact that I have found JOY!

PLANNING FOR 2009:
To let JOY expand........
To enJOY my exercise...
To enJOY my food - Good food.....
To enJOY my spiritual growth....
To enJOY learning.....
To enJOY my family.....
To enJOY ME!!!!!